Sunday, February 1, 2009

Emma's Final Chapter



I need to keep this brief, but wanted to update. Our Emma is gone. Her fight is over. We had a difficult night last night with her, and she gave us a sign that now was the time. She was bleeding internally, in her GI tract. This was all due to complications with the disease itself, medications, and her platelets being low, etc etc. We knew this because of the bloody stool in our bedroom last night at 1:30 am and in the yard at 3:10 am, I think? We confirmed with our Dr. this morning that the best course of action was to let her go, so today we did. The decision was made with much clarity. We don't need reassurance that we did the right thing, because we know we did. The sparkle was gone out of those beautiful brown eyes. She went to sleep so peacefully, and much to our surprise, we felt a great deal of relief at that moment. Of course now that we're home, other emotions are taking over. We were very honest with our children. They don't exactly know that it was our decision, but they know that her heart couldn't beat any longer, that today she was going to die, and that she couldn't overcome her illness. They said goodbye to her, but it's clear that they don't understand the true implications of what took place today. That is all for now. We will will miss you like crazy, Poo Bear.

2 comments:

Mark said...

Oh you guys, I feel so bad for you. I know you must be heartbroken for you and the kids. Yuck. No fun. What a blessed life Emma had and how fortunate you are to have her in your life. Hang in there. We are thinking of you.

john and nikki said...

so sorry to hear about your loss. We're thinking about you guys and keeping you in our prayers.